Scheduling my Salpingectomy and feel super nervous. Anyone else?

I have known I don’t want children for as long as I can remember. I have been on birth control since I was 17. I want to ensure that no babies will ever come from this body.

I was surprised my doctor did not blink an eye when I said I wanted to be sterilized. I thought it would be at least a 2-5 year battle. Now I’m looking having it done by early fall.

This makes me so nervous. It’s partly that I’ve never had such a major surgery, but also just how big a change this would be. I still want to have it done, but part of me is questioning just how badly do I actually want it done?

Has anyone else experienced such mixed emotions? How did you deal? I don’t want to be questioning myself when it comes time for surgery.